When you are disappointed with God - Part 2: Expecting Breakthrough

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Welcome back to the second part of my sharing “when you are disappointed with God”. This week I am going to share my personal experience on how I started to receive my breakthrough and healing from God.

We all know that we cannot get mad with God forever. After all He is our creator and our God. He has every right to do whatever He wants to do. Most of all I need Him in my life and I can’t live without Him. Therefore in my disappointment I was determined to rebuild my relationship back with God asking Him to help me overcoming this.

Below are some points that I would like to share with you if you ever get disappointed with God:

1. Understanding that your disappointment is valid to God.

He is okay with your disappointment. You need to tell Him that you are disappointed with Him. Talk to Him, He is your father, your Friend, and your God. He loves you and wants to be close with you.

2. Ask for forgiveness every time you are angry.

Your anger to God will come and go until you are fully healed. It is very normal as I also experience myself. Sometimes I am ok and ready to let go but another time I would be very mad at Him.  I just keep asking for His forgiveness every time I can’t help but to be angry again with Him because I do not want to sin against Him.

I also keep saying to myself, He must have a good reason for this and He is not obliged to explain it to me. Perhaps in later time He will tell me, but He is not obliged to. This way I find it helps me to overcome my anger in Him as well.

3. Ask His help to heal you.

Since my brother’s pass, in my prayer I always ask Him to heal me, heal my heart, and my disappointment. I want to have my confident back to Him. Because I know that He is a good father to me. This has been a continuous request in my prayer to date.

4. Don’t wait until you feel better to come back to Him.

Some Christians like to punish God by turning away from Him. I would suggest you in your disappointment do not run away from Him. Instead come to Him when you are still very vulnerable. You might not feel it but He cares for you a lot. Try to take comfort from Him though it may seem difficult.

5. Do not focus on your disappointment.

For my case, it is very normal when we are in grief we feel like we lost it all. There was no more energy left to keep me going when I just lost him. Yes we can be sad and grief for quite sometimes but do not keep focusing on this. Instead focus on something that can help you to feel better. If you love baking, let’s do baking. If you love gardening, put more plants in your garden. If you love writing, do some writing. Do anything you love to make you feel better.

6. In your disappointment, force yourself to come to God and ask what you can do for Him.

This might sound weird to you but I found this way help to speed up my healing. I did take few months to mourn because everyone needs it. But I then forced myself to get up and ask God what I can do to bless others through this. I have to warn you that this requires a lot of determination. How soon you want to recover? Or I should say how bad you want to recover? I didn’t want to stay mad for the rest of my life. My life is much more meaningful than sitting down and be angry to God. Therefore I kept praying to Him to give me direction of what I should do next. I want to do something for God!

After lots of prayer I finally received that God invited me to be an encourager to His people. He finally spoke to me after months of silent! And I got excited to receive His words. This blog is a result of my obedient during the process of healing from my disappointment to Him. As I started preparing my own blog, I found myself feeling excited for Him, for His Kingdom. This must be God who brings the desire in my heart to bless others. I am so grateful that He is faithful and He never leaves me alone even in my deepest valley.

Everything that God allows to happen in my life including the death of my brother is the process of God working inside me. Every one of us may experience some pains in our lives but what makes us different is how we respond to this ‘turbulance’ of life.

In the midst of the trouble, He is still able to give us the desire and power to do great things for Him. Do not bury these with your disappointment. Instead rise up and take up your territory!  

For God is working in you, giving you the desire and the power to do what pleases him – Philippians 2:13

I hope my story and sharing can give you comfort and will bless you in the times of trouble.

Thank you for reading my blog.

 

Comments

  1. Pit Djan15 October 2020 at 03:21

    Reminded me of the darkest time in my life; the time I knew I would be ok if I only trusted that God actually exists, which I didn’t that time.
    I’m glad I kept searching in my emptiness til my faith grew a bit.
    Now after more than 15 years have gone by, I’ve realized I only understood so little of the big picture, and yet even that little bit wouldn’t have been revealed if I were on my own..🙏✝️🙏
    Corrie Ten Boom: “I’ve experienced His Presence in the deepest darkest hell that men can create… I have tested the promises of the Bible, and believe me, you can count on them”..💖💖

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