Speak Over Your Life

 

Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: The old has gone, the new is here! – 2 Corinthian 5:17 (NIV)

When we have accepted Christ as our personal saviour, we have been made as new creation. Whoever we were in the past have to be changed into a new one. Whatever bad things that we used to have need to be replaced into good ones after we were born again. As children of God we have to be different with others. We have to set a good example for the people around us. And lastly we have to bear fruit. We have to make sure that our fruit can be seen and enjoyed by our friends, our family, our colleagues, and etc. 

But perhaps as you are reading this blog, you may have a thought how to change ourselves easily? It seems so difficult to do a transformation in us. It is not easy to change our character in a blink of an eye. It requires times, process, perseverance, a lot of motivation and so on.

The question is do you want to change? Do you find something in your character that stopping you moving forward with your walk with Christ? Or are you lacking something that you need to help you progressing in your calling in His kingdom? If you have yes answers to those questions, what are you going to do with it? I used to be happy with whatever I have and like to tell myself, this is me, I am like this, so you take it or leave it. However in the past few years I started to understand that we can change if we want to be better Christians. We can be blessing for others and we can be used for greater purpose if we are willing to be moulded and shaped by God.

Let me share my personal experience so you understand what I meant.

Since I was a child, I knew that I was a very strong task oriented person. I didn’t have many friends back then. My school friends didn’t enjoy making friend with me. No matter I tried to be close to them, for some reason they didn’t have a ‘click’ with me. I grew up not having a lot of friends let alone a best friend. I was not good in building relationship with people and it made me sad.

As I became a mum, this task oriented side in me developed even stronger. I felt I needed to finish all my ‘task’ with my kids and housework before I could enjoy myself. I didn’t like to waste my time to play with my children if the tasks were not done yet. As my responsibility grew bigger, the stressful I became. Many time I blamed my children for the unending workload in the house. I knew it was wrong but I couldn’t help it.

In the ministry at church was also the same, I couldn’t help much at church because my mind was all about my personal work that needed to be done. And if I could spare my time to the church’s event or ministry, I tend to choose the work at the background i.e. cleaning, preparing food in the kitchen, etc. I didn’t enjoy talking to people and guests. It stressed me out to actually stand and had to talk with new people. It was such a burden for me to start a conversation because I had to force my brain to think what to talk about. At the end of the day I became very exhausted.

I then envy my pastor and my church friends who can easily be in the flow with new people. Deep down in my heart I wish I had a little bit of their ‘people oriented’ side inside me.  I thought it would be nice if I can build friendship and connection with people. Something that I hardly had in my past.

I know there is nothing wrong being a task oriented person, In fact, it is actually my strength and my asset. But I am also desperately wanting to be people oriented. My problem was I couldn’t stop telling myself that I was a task oriented person and how difficult it was to change myself. I kept saying that over and over again to myself as if I am so proud of being one.

Until around 2.5 years ago in my frustration being a task oriented and having no flexibility with people, suddenly there was a voice inside me asking me “what if from now you stop saying that you are a task oriented person? What if from now on you declare yourself as people oriented person?”

I was surprise and thought that was a good idea. So because I was desperate to feel how to be a people oriented, I then stopped calling myself as a task oriented instead I start telling me as a people oriented. I just focused on declaring myself of what I wanted to become.  Surprisingly in late 2020 I just realised that I have changed gradually from the moment I started declaring those words over myself.  

I started to enjoy talking with new people. I feel the flow when I need to create conversation with them. In my recent ministry, I also start to enjoy engaging with the new people in the organisation which I found very surprising. While I am still maintaining the task oriented side in me, I am now excited that I have desires for people as well. This is something new for me which I treasure very much. I thank God that He has helped me to change into better person for His kingdom.

So how bad do you want to change? If there are some characters that you want to change in you or if you desire something to be in you which you have not had yet, everything is possible with God. You just need to bring it to God, declare it over your life, and finally God will do the rest.  

I hope this sharing will bless you.