Am I Hungry Enough For God?

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I have been prompted with the above question recently. This question is actually for myself. Several weeks ago, my church friend did some clean up and as she cleaned her Christian books and audios, she asked me if I want to borrow several of her books and audios. My quick honest answer to her was a NO. I felt like I didn’t have time to read all those books and not really interested in reading basically.

However after I said that I felt guilty, condemning myself for not being holy enough or not spiritual enough by rejecting the offer for Christian books. But on the other side I don’t want to take the offer only because I want to pretend to be ‘holy’ in front of my friend. I always want to be genuine to myself and also to my Christian friends. When I say YES it should be aligned to my heart as well.

I thought if I pray, do worship, and spend time with God at least 30-45 mins daily is already good enough. At least I feel good after I have done all of this. However after I refused the offer from my friend, I felt that I would be judged by refusing this offer even though there was nobody said anything.

So to make myself at peace, I called this friend of mine and had a chat with her about this. I asked her how much enough is enough for God? Do I have to read Christian books on top of my daily devotion? Do I have to listen more sermons daily to make myself feeling better as Christians?

My friend answered it is not about how many books you read in a week or how many sermons / teachings you listen in a day, but how hungry you are for God. When you feel hungry for Him, you will never feel you have enough. You will want to have more and more. It’s like you have Jesus in your mind day and night and you can’t stop thinking about Him.

Now I get that it is not about reading how many books in a year or listening how many preaching in a week. The most of important thing is we spend time with Him because we love Him and not because of the duty.

I then told my friend to lend me one of her books, I want to learn how to be in love with God all over again. She was delighted to lend her book to me.

Suddenly I remembered when I was in my 20s, I went for a holiday to New Zealand with my parents just the three of us. We just stayed in 1 hotel room during our 6 day trip. Staying with my parents preventing me to spend my quiet time with God. I could only do a quick prayer each day and after several days I missed spending time with Him. On the fourth day, I was talking to Him in my heart that I missed Him, I missed spending time with Him.

Then on the last 2 nights, we moved to a new hotel in Christchurch. After we checked into the hotel, we went to our hotel room. When I opened our room door, we were confused why the room was so big, it had 2 levels, living area, kitchen and 2 different floor bedrooms. I then rang the reception to tell them that they gave me the incorrect room because we only booked for a standard room. The reception told us, that we have been upgraded to a penthouse because the standard room was not available. I knew this was God. He purposely gave us this hotel room. He knew that I wanted so much to spend time with Him but I couldn’t because I stayed with my parents so He accommodated me with this luxury accommodation so I could have a fellowship with Him in my own room.

This is our God who we worship. His heart is so loving and always want to get close with us. This week’s topic is actually for me to meditate on, am I hungry enough for Him? Do I only want to give my 30-45 mins daily to Him or do I love Him so much that I can’t take my mind off Him day and night?

Thank you for reading my blog and I hope this sharing can prompt a question in your heart of how much you love our loving Jesus.

So the Lord must wait for you to come to him so he can show you his love and compassion. For the Lord is a faithful God…. – Isaiah 30:18 (NLT)

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  1. Pit Djan22 July 2021 at 05:05

    A warning for all of us who easily forget what is most important in life

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