Accepting God's Will in Ourlives - Part 2

 

Don’t copy the behavior and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think. Then you will learn to know God’s will for you, which is good and pleasing and perfect. - Romans 12:2

This week I want to share another story of accepting Gods will in my life. This is rather different to my story in the previous week. As we grow mature in Christ, He wants to increase us in such a way that we may feel going through it is a painful or not pleasant journey.

I have resigned from my full-time job in June 2019. One of the reasons I quitted my job was because I wanted to spend time more with my late brother. Working full time made me unable to visit him more because the time left for me on the weekend was only for Children tuition and cleaning up the house. On another reason because in the last few months of my employment, I started to feel not well. I started to have sinus, eye problem, and some more. I then thought I must have been too tired with full time job as well as taking care of my 2 young children.

After my brother’s pass in early 2020, I started to look for a part time job and I got one. As I worked in this job, I started to feel unwell again. My eye began to flare up until I couldn’t see clearly. I also had stomach problem for many months, and it affected my work. I then quitted my part time job again because I need to treat my eye and my stomach. Then I wanted to find another part time job, but I got the news about fibroids in my uterus and it needed to be removed immediately as I lost a lot of blood. I had to queue up for my surgery hence I couldn’t look for another job.

After operation, I had to wait for few weeks for recovery and after 3 months, in February 2021, I felt I was ready to look for another part time job. However, suddenly I got a severe back pain. I went to physiotherapy few times but instead of getting better, it got worse. I decided to see Chiropractor and found out that I got Scoliosis where my backbone is bending to the left hence all my body was aching. There was some stage I couldn’t sit nor stand up for a long time. I had to lie down on my side so that I don’t have to feel pain.

I thought I would give myself few weeks of treatment and as soon as I felt better, then I just came back to the previous part time job. I couldn’t bother to apply for a new job, so I just contacted my previous boss and asked for work. But after he gave me a shift, suddenly my eye started to flare up and became red and painful. I was supposed to start my shift on that week, but I had to cancel with my boss due to the flare up of my eye. The boss was adamant with me because he didn’t have anyone to work on that day and I just cancelled my shift. He told me that I shouldn’t work here if I couldn’t be reliable.

I was very mad with the whole situation that has happened to me. I didn’t ask for a career, I didn’t ask for a high paid job, I just wanted to work part time and help the family finance. I thought what I wanted to do was a good thing but why God allowed so many problems in my health that preventing me to get a job? For more of this story, you can read my previous blog title, “Make Peace With Yourself”. In that blog I shared how God has spoken to me about this.

So, after spending time with Him, I knew that it will be awhile or in indefinite time until I can come back to work force again. I must accept that His will for me at this time being is not to go back to work. Therefore, instead of praying for a job, I asked Him if He has something for me to do. I now have accepted the fact that He has prevented me from going back to work. But I know it is not for me to lazy around at home.

Slowly God has opened doors for me to another world that I haven’t thought before. God has given me more passion in different areas. And these bring new excitements in me. I am amazed to see how He has changed me; change the way I see my life and see other people around me. All I can say that He has reserved me for something great.

He is a good father; He knows what’s best for us. The faster we accept His will and align our will with His, the faster He can work in us. From then on, we will see a new excitement that God has in store for us.

Thank you for reading my blog and I hope you are encouraged.